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[28 Mar 2006|01:50pm] |
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10 F A V O R I T E S
~TV show: grays anautomy
~Flower: lilys (you should see the pink and white boquet that dan brought me smelling/ filling up my room this week)
~Movie: almost famous
~Color: teal/green
~Sport: to watch: deetrrroiit basketball- as taya would say
~Mall: rats? the movie...its pretty cool , i still have a crush on jason lee
~Music: goldfinger that it pure goldfinger. hahahahahah
~Food: i cant stop eating chiken
~Animal: i dont like em...but my friend allison has a really cool dog that makes me happy, so theres an exception to every rule
1 0 F A C T S
~Height: 5’4 1/2
~Hair color: brown with carmel highlights naturally hahahahaha
~Hair length: between chin and shoulders, kelly cutted it!
~Hair style: sleek and straight and angle cut, when i was getting it done kelly called it the ive been getting fucked alot style
~Eye color: hazel, they went crazy green this weekend though
~Shoe Size: 8 1/2
~Personality: better than yours
~Birthplace: detroit, i lived there for a whole two weeks
~Birthday: sept 14th. virgo
~Siblings: 3 bros
1 0 L I F E
~How's life: always exciting. i feel like i wake up everyday and im in a new movie, i get dressed in my costume (outfit) for the day and i take off for whatever adventures may come. it makes everything, even getting a coffee at the local place seem really amazing. it makes life happy
~Whats your mood right now: antsy, i want out of work so bad today , im ready to run at the gym
~What are you doing right now: this survey and pretending to be working.(good answer kelly)
~What are you doing over the weekend: friday im going to heads will role with allison and dan and possibly john M????please come! Saturday im going to three things, 1st the code, then electric six, then dork wave. sunday im sleeping in at dans cause i promised and then spending time with christie and elyse i assume cause its our day. ill work and go to the gym alot in there too
~What do you want to do with your life: be so happy with everything and everyone and myself that it makes everyone else sick, and so far its going well
~Where are you right now: at work
~Are you coming from somewhere: my vagina hahahaha
~How are you doing in school: 90-97% in every class so far this semster!
~How are your friends: amazing for liking and sticking by me for all these years
~How's your family: Good! perfect, happy, getting a brand new huge plasma and tv stand today.
1 0 L O V E L I F E
~Have you ever been in love: in love yes i fall in and out of it as time passes
~Why did your last relationship fail: just like every other one, by not being right
~Have you ever had your heart broken: no
~Have you ever broken somebody's heart: i dont care
~Have you ever fallen for your best friend: nope
~Are you planning on getting married: yes maam 30-35ishyou know when everybody thats getting married now is going through their divorces
~Are you afraid of committment: petrified
~When was your last kiss: this morning
~When was your last relationship: i hate the word relationship so i refuse to answer this
~Are you friends with all your ex's: friends are for talking boyfriends are for fucking, boyfriends dont turn into friends when the fucking is over
1 0 R A N D O M S
~One thing sitting next to you: sidekick duh
~Do you like the color purple: thats so funny. i made dan change this weekend cause he was wearing purple and purple makes me sick to my stomach. i hate fucking purple
~How many cds do you own: too many to count
~Longest phone conversation: haha like 5 hours last week with someone
~What is your most prized posession:my intuition
~If you could go anywhere: it would be to new york with christie laabs and elyse
~Are you wearing socks: no i freaked out one day a couple of months ago and decided i hated socks and threw them all out, now i have some randoms to go running with. it was kinda a dumb decision, i just hate clutter in my house and i especially hate people who have nasty houses with shit everywhere, how the fuck do you think !!!!!!!
~What size ring do you wear: 7
~Are you oldest, middle or youngest: oldest (aka demanding bitch)
~Hitchhikers thumb: yeah , whats up with that
1 0 T H I S O R T H A T S
~Pepsi or coke: diet pepsi
~CD or Radio: sirius fuck regular radio with all its commercials and censorship!!!
~Tommy boy or black sheep: fuck chris farley (sorry christie)
~Saturday or Sunday: sunday baby, easy like a sunday morning (yeah kelly b)
~Single or taken: i cant answer these type of questions,
~Colored or black and white: black and white
~Phone or in Person: person
~Hollister or American Eagle: i dont do cheep mall shit anymore
~Sneakers or Sandals: sandals
~Coach or Doonie & Bourke: prada?????
1 0 H A V E Y O U E V E R S
~Have you ever been caught sneaking out: i snuck out of work and got caught doing it last week, i had to make an excuse about getting something out of my car but i know my boss knew what i was doing. i wanted to go to the gym earlier!
~Have you ever fought someone: yes
~Have you ever skinny dipped: yes
~Have you ever done something you regret: no sincerely no
~Have you ever bungee jumped: no
~Have you ever been on a house boat: yes
~Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker: no
~Have you ever been out of the country: many times
~Have you ever been in a car accident: not a major one but lots o little ones
~Have you ever eaten a whole box of oreos: no way
10 A R E Y O U S
~Are you missing someone right now: yes
~Are you happy: yes
~Are you talking to anyone right now: yes
~Are you thirsty: always
~Are you bored: yes so bored
~Are you German: No
~Are you Irish: no
~Are your parents still married: yes
~Are you crushing on someone: yup!yup yup yup yup
~Are you tired: i cant keep up my late night rendevous anymore
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fashion fest was better than i could have ever imagined, thanks to everyone who came and everyone who particpated and everyone who lended a skill to help me ....
special thanks to alliosn t, christie l, elyse v, mike d, angie m, ramona, moulin rouge and kelly b, and girls girls girls for putting on a great show.
check out this link for a few pics but ill have some stuff up in a few days if i can, im too busy being way too girly and digging myself in a hole right now (and it feels good)
i love this weekend...sdt think there is not more to come from me!
http://iloveelephants.livejournal.com/388155.html
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im bored at work and its a long day cause i ain't feeling soo good so im doing this , bear with me:::
Name: miss sadie
Siblings: 3
Brothers: 3
Sisters: 0
Eye color: hazel, mostly stays brown and sometimes goes crazy green
Shoe size: 8 1/2
Height: 5'4"and a half (there is no way that your 54 alliosn)
Innie or Outie: Innie
What are you wearing right now?: hahahah sweat pants and a hoodie (EWE)
Where do you live?: sterling whites
Righty or lefty: righty
Best place to go for a date: cuban place
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Favorites....
Number: 14
Boys Name: i dont fucking care
Girls Name: chloe or betsy ( i finally met a betsy!)
Drink: canadian whiskey & gingerale (yes tins good job)
Month:all fall months
Juice: cranberry
Breakfast: egg white omlette
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Have You Ever..
Smoked: yeah haha
Bungee jumped: nooooo
Made yourself throw-up: yes, drinking makes that seem good
Gone skinny dipping: YES
Loved someone so much it made you cry: my family
Broken a bone: nope
Played Truth or Dare: yeah
Been in a police car: yeah
Been on a plane: yeah
Came close to dying: no but i have this weird heart thing and elyse says its nothing but i think im dying and i just want to for warn everyone that i knew i was dying so when i die, blame it on elyse
Been in a sauna: yeah
Been in a hot tub: yeah
Swam in the ocean: yeah
Fallen asleep in school: yeah
Broken someone's heart: probaly not but how the fuck would i know
Cried when someone died: yes
Cried in school: im sure i did in high school and i know i fucking did in junior high, them kids were mean haha
Fell off your chair: daily
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: suprisingly no
Saved AIM conversation:once haha
Saved e-mails: yeah
Made out with just a friend: weekly
Been cheated on: not to my knowledge but im sure i have
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What is...
What's your room like: really clean
What is beside you: sidekick, water, book, purse
What is the last thing you ate:can of tuna can of corn (im weird)
What kind of shampoo do you use: matrix sleek look--------------------------------------------------------------------------
Ever Had...
Chicken pox: yes
Sore throat: yes(right now)
Stitches: no
Broken nose: no
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Do You...
Believe in love at first sight: nope
Like picnics: LOVE picnics
Like school: i actually do
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Questions:
who was the last person you called? hmmm i just texted tins
who was the last erson you danced with? nicole and tins
Who makes you smile: haha stuff hahahahahahahahah im blusing
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Who...
Did you last yell at: my brother and he recorded it on his razor and made me watch it the next day, it was awesome. im mean
Broke your heart: now it seems like nobody (i like that answer tins so im keeping it)
Told you they loved you?: my mom when i left for work i guess???
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Do you like filling these out: only when im super bored
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses: contacts
Do you like yourself: too much
Do you get along with your family: there the best family anyone could ever ask for
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Final Questions:
What are you listening to right now: howard stern
What did you do yesterday?: worked, talked to dan, went home, feel asleep, pissed christie off by falling asleep, elyse came over, i feel asleep, went to angies once i felt better, hung out in girl circle and made shit... watch stern on late night and feel asleep ( i missed the gym for the first time in along time) boooooo
Hated someone in your family: no never
What car do you wish to have: bently
Where do you want to get married: vegas
Good driver: slow driver
Good singer: not at all but i still do it haha
Diamond or pearl: diamonds are forever
Are you oldest? yes- and it explains alot
Indoor or outdoor: outdoor
Today did you...
1. Talk to someone you liked: yes blshing
2. Buy something: play doh
3. Get sick: yes and threw up
4. Sing: yes in my car and in the tanning both i went to on break
8. Talked to an ex: no thanks
9. Miss someone: yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Last person who....
10. Was in your bed?: thats for me to know and you not to worry about
12. Made you cry:stupid tv
13. Went to the movies with: i havent gone to the movies since....i think i was dating my x or something....i hate the movies
14. You went to the mall with: havent went to the "mall" in a long time either, not into it anymore
16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: never owned a pet
17. Been to California: no
18. Been to Mexico: no
19. Been to Canada: yes
20. Been to Africa: no-but its the one place i have to go before i die
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21. Do you have a crush on someone: i have well okay yes i have a crush on someone
22. What books are you reading now: you have to kiss alot of frogs by the best friend of candace bruhnell (the lady that wrote sex and the city) and school books
23. Best feeling in the world: sweating
24. Future KIDS names: future kids ? who are these kids, maybe zoe or platapus, i dont know what kids will be named in the future???
25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: a hippo that christie bought me at disney this year
26. What's under your bed: nothin im ocd
27. Favorite sport to watch: basketball
28. Favorite location?: new york
29. Piercing/Tattoos: awesome sternum piercing (aka between the tits) plugs, septum, cartilage, and i took everything else out...and no tats
30. What are you most scared of right now: failure
32. Who do you really hate? les mooves
33. Do you have a job?: yeah three
35.Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with? does kayne west count??? cause i think i have a chance with anyone, i mean pussy is pussy and boys like it hahahahahahahahaha im awesome
37. Are you lonely right now: nope not even alittle bit
38. Song that's stuck in your head right now: anything off solo jenny lewis
39. Have you ever played strip poker: YES
40. Have you ever gotten beat up? thats just stupid, im tuff!
43. Have you ever been in a mosh-pit: yes hahah too many
44. Ever liked someone but thought they'd never notice you? nope im too loud and annoying not to notice , i mean cute and awesome hahahah
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Random
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair
Your Favorite Food?: mexican
Have you ever cried for no reason?: yes, i never actually cry for reasons, its sad
Are you too shy to ask someone out?: nope, just dont believe girls should anymore
Hugs or kisses?: depends who their from
Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?:plain
Favorite Flower?: lilies
Have you ever fired a gun?: fuck yeah! it makes me feel like i have a big dick
Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car?: plane
How many pillows do you sleep with?: 1
Who are you missing right now?:i dont know : wink wink
Do you think your ex misses you?: im not the kinda girl you miss
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IM ON SPRING BREAK THIS WEEK AND I THINK THAT IS SWELL.
I ALSO THINK THAT THIS WEEKEND WAS PRETTY EFFING SWEET. I WENT OUT A BUNCH
THURSDAY I WENT TO BOYS NIGHT OUT WITH RYAN V AND JUSTIN. WE HAD FUN, WE DRANK ALOT, WE PLAYED IN THE TOUR BUS (WHICH WAS INSANE) AND WE WENT OVER TO THE LAGER HOUSE FOR A SHOW. AND THEN MEXICAN TOWN AT 145 IN THE MORNING FOR TAKE OUT.
FRIDAY I WENT TO JESSICA K'S BAR AND HUNG OUT TILL WELL PAST CLOSE WHEN THE MEAN GUY TOLD US TO LEAVE. IF YOU EVER GET A CHANCE TO GO IN THERE YOU SHOULD , JESSICA AND HER CO WORKER ARE VERY PRETTY TO LOOK AT.AND THE BAR IS QUITE FANCY. GOOD FRIENDS, GOOD TIMES
SATURDAY I TRIED TO JUST TAKE A NAP AFTER WORK SO I WOULD HAVE THE NIGHT OUT AND ENERGY BUT I OVER SLPET AND ALMOST MISSED IT! MY MOM CAME THROUGH ON THE WAKING ME UP. I WENT TO HEADS WILL ROLE AT SMALLS AND SAW FRIENDS AND GOOD MUSIC, THEN WE WENT TO OSLO FOR SASS, WHICH I WAS SUPER EXCITED ABOUT. THE SECOND I WALKED IN NICOLE RAN ME OVER AND INTRODUCED ME TO TRENT FROM WWW.PINKISTHENEWBLOG.COM A HERO OF MINE THAT JESSICA K INTRODUCED ME TO AWHILE AGO. I EMBARASSED MYSELF (MOSTLY CAUSE IVE BEEN DRUNK FOR TOO LONG) AND YELLED I LOVE YOU AT THIS KID LIKE TWELVE TIMES. BUT HE TOOKS SOME PICS AND WE DANCED OUR ASSES OFF. IF YOU GO TO THE SITE HE GAVE ME A SHOUT OUT THE NEXT DAY, WHICH FOR A DORK LIKE ME MADE MY WEEK!
WENT AND SAW MIKE AND TERRI'S NEW BAND LAST NIGHT AT CHRIS "PURIFICATIONS" NEW SHOP. THE SHOP WAS AMAZING, THE SHOW WAS TOO...
THEN I WENT OUT WITH SOMEONE AND HAD A TIME....THATS ALL ILL SAY ABOUT THAT (AKA I CANT STOP SMILING TODAY)
THIS WEEK IS ALOT OF CATCHING UP, ON SLEEP, HOMEWORK, STUFF FOR THE SHOW, FRIENDS, CONVERSATIONS, TANNING, LAUNDRY, MASTERBATION ECT.....
REMEMEBER MY FRIENDS THIS SATURDAYS IS FASHION FEST....EVERYONE GOING TO BE THERE (MAYBE I DONT REALLY KNOW HAHA ) SO WHY WOULDNT YOU BE THERE>>>>> SEE YOU THEN KIDDOS
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im in an emotional mood for no specific reason. yesterday i was so tired and so overwhelmed, i just stayed home and took care of some stuff, i needed alone time:
i got to thinking about something after watching grays anautomy: prepare youself this is alittle emo: the show was talking about what you would do if you knew it was your last day or you last week or whatever on earth. such a cliche story line, of course they made it intresting: but thats not my point
i thought about my life. and what popped into my head are the people that are in it. more speicify the women that i saw over the weekend at various places. and i have something to say to each of the women in my life:
Jessica K: you posses a certain aura around you. i love when you crinkle your face at what someone is saying or wearing. i love the shitty look you give people that shouldnt be talking to us. i love the smily faces in all of your texts. i love the way you dress like you and no one else, and i love your honesty , i admire you so much for that.
Alison Tins: you are beatuiful. You look stunning even in pjs and makeup is far from a nessessity for you. you have such perfect features , so small so skinny so short. you looked stunning on saturday in that cute little sweater. best tattoos on a women ever. And you are always there when you say that you will be, and you forgive, and you listen...you are priceless to me.
Jenny Blo: i hope i never lose you, even if i only get to see you every 6 months. your strong, your sexy ( i know you'd never believe that) and your funny. you've been a pleasure to know and a pleasure to travel with. i just like your attitude, and that you "get me"
Christie Laabs: awe what do i say to you. your my sister, your a cunt,and i fucking love it. so tough, so moody, so sweet. and your fucking smile could rip my heart out. you know me better than ANYONE ever has and you still like me. that says alot. every dinner, every trip, every tv show, every movie, and every time we wuss out together to gray anautomy makes me love you more. I think about what my life would be like if i never met you, and i know that you are so pivital to it all that noting would have been the same without you.
Elyse Paul Vargos Thomishivski (?)Whatever your fucking name is: your my kickboxing buddy, and my sister, and my teacher. your super smart and you always have a great answer. your my encouragement and my motivation , i love when you tell me im doing good, it makes me feel awesome. you listen well, and you have a huge heart. your also honest, and it helps. You have the perfect smile that lights your face up and scrunches your cheeks
Angie Mcbride: you get me. your smart, your my walking buddy and my counselor.you listen, and i talk alot so that says alot. you have red hair, and its pretty. you make clothes and i wear them to work and my boss compliments me. we make things happen, and we are us. your just special
Kelly B- your soul is actually prettier than your face, which when your above a 10 seems impossible. you are so good hearted and so caring, it is truely something that others including myself should always strive for. YOu make me feel like a million bucks once a month and then reinforce it once a week. your like my long lost good twin sister and im the evil counterpart, and i like it that way. your marrying mr perfect, and hes the lucky one. i love you.
Christ- you bitch! your so tuff and a puppy. you know what you want and you get it. your always fun and always intresting. im so glad that over the years ive gotten to know you and been able to keep you in my life. and your hair is fucking awesome. oh yeah and id kill for your tiny ass stomach.
hmmmm yeah my ladies.....i loves my boys...but theres something about my ladies, maybe its admiration for what you are..cause the things i love most about all of you are traits that i strive to/wish that i had. im just lucky
and the point of this is: if i knew that i was dying today, spoending this weekend with all of you and the few boys that still own my heart would have been good enough for me. im lucky lucky lucky and i never want to forget that.
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So betty friedan died, that really sucks. The world is a much better place because of her, how many of you can say that? How many of you are saying betty who?
on the flip side: grandpa munster died and thinking of him is just funnyand awesome. The funny thing is that all of you know who this is.
Not that im any better, i just think that who gets the front page is intresting and says alot about people today.
but of course these two deaths only held headlines for a moment when the passing of Mrs. Loretta King was announced. And dont worry my friends, oprah has already taken a picture of herself with the body and released it so that you know :
1) she is better than you and knew earlier than you
2)that she is friends with important people
3) that she cares so deeply
4) that she is really intense about her heritage and background.
So i get it, all i need is some really good PR of me doing something really nice and meaningful and people will forget about all my past umm.... mess ups? lets not forget angelina jolie, the world traveling do gooder who happens to have stolen someones husband(at least slept with before the divorce which we all know circa her being about 6 months along), wore blood around her neck (billy bob thortons blood????), kissed her brother after winning a oscar ( yeah tomb raider won an oscar), and denounced her father cutting ties with him after he publicly begged to be part of her life on national t.v. She gets two immigrant kids and we all love her.
I read to immigrant kids today,and poor kids, and mentally hanicapped kids, does that count for someting?
hmmm.....im crazy
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long day of 12 hours of work today, im not happy about that. im bored with everything, so routine for the past two weeks and i hate hate hate routine. but with how crazy school is (five classes ) it is hard not to get into a school/ work/ nap rut. i cannot wait to go to jersey/new york right now. it is my motivation for even going to work and shit cause i need that dollar dollar bill for the trip.
i am under the firm belief that if you want something a certain way, then you do it yourself, this works for a lot of things. So i planned a few shows that i think might be fun, there themed and shit. so as soon as the bands are set in stone ill be advertising it. I think that you will all be at least a little intrested, or at least i hope so. if you have any suggestions of bands or ideas get them to me.
RO for dinner and bar hoping with ______(boy)tonight and strip club with kelly b and the ladies saturday, kickboxing and grandma on sunday. so im kinda legit.
nice fun weekend
<3 miss sadie
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and then it happens........yeah i wish i could go into detail but i cant on this public forum....yeah awesome!
other than that i have this friend and she makes me laugh and she makes me feel special. she does things that are awesome and says things that are awesome. i know she knows this is about her so yeah-im just telling you tht your awesome..
on another note: new york in a few weeks sounds cool right! i cannot wait to shop. not that needing money for this trip stopped me from buying a dior bracelet yesterday ..cause it didnt.
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[09 Jan 2006|12:38pm] |
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so here is my position?
there is this 18 year old in me who refuses to grow up in any way shape or form. all she wants to do is go to parties, make out, meet boys, dance, drink, sleep in, eat fries and be a kid forever.
there is this 25 year old in me that wants to get a great job, own a house, graduate , be serious, go only out on early evening get togethers with my friends, sit at home in the pjs, and be a responsible adult.
i believe that for a number of years the 25 year old was winning the battle and everything was going well in my plan to be successful at school and work. but then i felt bad that i was so called "missing out on being young and enmjoying my life". So i let the 18 year old roam free occasionally. but as of recent i can say that i believe that the 18 year old took over. Me and her partied like crazy did whatever we wanted and throughly enjoyed life. But i need the 25 year old to get alittle more dominance over the 18 year old impulses to keep up with my busy life and schedule.
so i thought about it: i cant be 18 and im not 25. im 22, im sadie and what i do and how i do it has to be mine. in my fashion and in my style.
dating is the example: ive never been good at dating, though i frequently preform this act. At least once a week i go out with a new boy in hopes of...thats the problem. for me its just going out. in the past there have been some awkward dates that turned into relationships and then down the road trainwrecked (as opposed to that 1st date night). but in genereal they dont work. either im bored or their bored or we dont work or your annoying or not my type or you fall in love with me and i feel bad. Dating is meant to be just dating. but i have to remember that the ohter persons feelings are attached. and while right now the idea of any commitment to even a hair color freaks me out, the prosepect of kissing and other such things drives me to keep going. but then when your only in it for that and the ohter is looking for miss right and they project that on you, you feel like an ass hole. THe 25 year old says stay at home and lock yourself up cause you are so far from ready to be owned, abused, and annoyed with another boyfriend (baggage). but the 18 wants to get laid as often as possible by the cute boys that live in this city.
they are battleing at every front you can see.
so what then: I saw some things this weekend that made me change inside a bit.
im on lease to everything i do: i am not ready to be your savior or your girlfriend but i am ready for dinner and drinks, im not ready for a careear or too much responsibilty but i am ready to get through this next semster. im not ready to be a insider but i do like when i can sit at home in my slippers with the ladies and chat.im not ready to give you all my time cause i find that no matter what over the years i am happiest in the pressence of christie, elyse, angie, allison , and jessica. (yep all girls)
simply im doing the best i can to get me where i want to go. i want the job and the parties and there is nothing wrong with that. its just im not the partier that "you" are, and i want the job and the nice life and the success but not in the way that "you" are getting it. my past has lead me to a place where i really like sadie and the person that ive grown up into. im fucking unberably pretty, funny, witty, caring, and awesome, and im a shit bag. those are both cool ways to describe me.
im doing shit at my pace and you may think i am weird and im happy that what your doing is working for you but this is whats working for me. and i just needed my self to tell myself this on some form of a letter because i get sick of what is expected in general being applied to me . i think i can do so much more and care to do so much less at the same time.
i refuse to feel bad becasue i hurt you and you didnt expect it becasue sweetie i told you from the start where i was coming from but like every other man you didnt listen and you wanted way more than i am from me , maybe if you payed attention and stopped seeing me through the glass lens that you wanted to , it would have been clear that what i said is what i meant. and now youve creeped me out.
fuck it : sterns on all day and of course i have another date tonight sorry
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hmmm. he left yesterday and i didnt care right? Thats what i thought, but i still smell the roses. oh well, hawaii doesn't sound all that bad, especially when your paying.
my new video i pod makes your shitty old one look like a 12 dollar tranny in the meat packing district. or: me look like an ass for spending money on more toys. i now own more than i ever thought that i would.echo that for diamonds: which are also awesome ( as long as they aint the blood diamonds hahaha-lea).
New years was quite fab this year: allisons was fun and there were tons of intresting kids to talk and even more FREE alcohol to drink. Ubertis was also nice: funny pictures from that get together: also a small loss of more gambleing money
I got my grades today for last semster: 2 a's and 2 b's
Read: i didnt fail anything hahahahahha awesome!
back to "real life" today. to bad i have no grip on reality anymore. being obliged to only oneself leaves an open book of possiblites that is amazeing and scary but turns out to just be amazing once your there? yeah thats my profound new years thought: no resolutions , those are for the gays and the cripples.
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[23 Dec 2005|06:53pm] |
so here is an upate:
i now am the proud owner of a john deer belt buckle given to me by the handsome mr. johnnny b> years of searching are over. Thank you so much!
I also own new clothes and gift cards and necklaces from the sweet thoughts of girls like elyse christie and jessica - you are all too nice.
I have prettier hair than anyone you know! its sholder length dark choclate brown with carmel highlights...kelly kelly kelly what can i do with you! or more imporatly what can i do with you and fisher. no seriously when were all in flordia , im saying it sounds like the right time.
Recent times have been filled with secret kitchen danicing.much needed cuddleing?...long talks...bars...more bars... shows.. steves band.. more trips...more electronic toys then i dont know what to do with and a few cousins in town..oh yeah and three weeks of over 25 people playing poker and me getting out 5th when we pay till 4th??? thanks alot!
Happiness is something you cant look for. you wake up one day and breath in air and realize that even if you tried nothing could make you feel better than you feel in the present, finally reaching that has been a sought after and not till recently find for me. i believe that the dark shadow that reigned over my life for a good 6 months has lifted cause i finally am seeing things the way i always wanted them to be, and by that i mean this, there, now, me, us, them, is just enough. wow yeah, an i mean it
merry christmas to all, my family of about 50 is at my house tommmorw and all im going to do is dance with my niece and play cards with my cousin and eat like a fat ass. what more can we ask for right?
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[15 Dec 2005|09:46pm] |
listening to the last few minutes of a show that changed radio, tv, and life as we know it..im sad, i dream to be robbing quivers someday and if i come close to how classy she is i will be proud of myself.
It gives you a place to know where you fit in wheather you see it or not, its my family that ive never met.
good bye terrestrial radio hellp sirius.
howard is cumming all over america
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[12 Dec 2005|02:34pm] |
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so this weekend was again perfect. im am running out of steam. i was out of town again this weekend and it was awesome, not so much snow to deal with, but i didnt role back till almost 6 am today, i had to get ready for work at seven. i made it here with a hour nap and im paying for it now....At least i didnt drive haha
yeah so much for going to that party saturday, i decided to skip out and make other plans..I was sad about not seeing kelly and really sad about missing fisher actually out at a party.
Ah well there is always wensdays!
Nicole Richie and DJ AM are done, im totally getting that dweeb if it is the last thing i do.And i found my hook up to the fat singer of fall out boy-that one is already in the works
last night when i was sitting around with pud we decided what i was looking for. a man that came around once in a while but almost never... but the key is that he isnt avoiding me but actually has enough of his own life that he is too busy to see me...then i decided that i was marrying his brother anyways like already planned and we ended that conversation, greg is pefect by the way.
along week ahead of me: finals! whoa yeah! i lost all my numbers and i have this christmas card of my family in a sleigh in front of our house, and by sleigh i mean my dads car with the top down. its pretty intense.
Drop me your number if you ever wish to talk again cause new phones are awesome, way to blow another three hundred sadie! haha oh well channel earrings, sidekick, sirus radio-whose coming with me to buy a i pod this week? i need help!
*lucky*
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uuh what a fucking weekend! So much fun! I love free drinks per nice bar tenders, even better when you get them all night. thanks for that one.I hope that me and the girls can hit that place up again cause its walking distance from angies new joint.
"Tour" was the best thing ever. i love everyone sooooo much! I crowd surfed, well more acuratly chris told me to do it and my drunk ass did, it was awesome until i fell, then it was funny. if it isnt on tape ill cry. lots of friend reunions this weekend, krysten and seth were there and they were nothing but good times. hoteling it up was fun and i appreciate justin for taking care of that for me...you and j are the best. and i call you both j cause im too lazy to say your names. its like a dual retarded nickname.
I met a guy who has a masters in social work and his best friend had a mom named sarah ann with an H who has a masters in social work. They were cool, too bad they use it to tour the world and have fun. oh wait who is the sucker in that one?
P.S. that was more than enough "tour" for me. fun but more than enough haha
on a side note: i have a message from john m that says he bought me a christmas present and this so called present will put an end to a search that has spaned time? i have no idea what that means or what it could be , but im really excited about it.
Oh !you should see the necklace i got this weekend...best gift ever!
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[22 Jan 2005|03:08pm] |
well well well, i am actually updating on here for once.
all i want to say is this
i am happy
yes life is awesome and i am very greatful for that... and i havent seen anyone in a long long imte, but i still love and cherish all of you
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| i just want to say a very hardy thank you |
[15 Sep 2004|07:08pm] |
to all those that spent my birthday with me. to those that bought me drinks and those that bought me gifts, to those tat made sweet posts in my name, and those that gave me a kss and a hug. it meant the world, there is nothing better than spending time and smiles with your friends. i appreciate it more than you will ever know. i feel very lucky that all my friends are part of my life. so this is your shout out
<3 sadie
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so my birthday is tuesday and if you get the urdge you should come by the stop spot in ferndale high five me and have a beer with me. ill be up there between 930 and 10 and anyone that wants to come by there between then and close should do so. thanks for your time
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| there are not many nights that warrent me to share them with the world anymore |
[06 Sep 2004|01:26am] |
but... this one definatly does:
i expected to just go to my grandmothers birthday party with my "date" john but at the end of the night we got a phone call to meet some friends in canada. i havent been to canada basically since i was 19 and since the big 21 is but a few days away and im sweet and been sneaking into places for years there usually is no reason. but what i forgot is drink specials for all the slutty women that go over there. i suggest taht more people take advantage of this more often. so we ran around canada bar hopping and drinkingl. we met a man named terry who loved the slogan "get her done boys get her done" what he hated was anyhting not whote american which is funny cause he was from canada. to hear a sample of this mans voice call tys voice mail and listen to his message. it will change your life. other than that it was awesolme to go over and just hang out with some friends. and since i found out that i didnt have to work today like i thought taht i had to, i got wasted which i never do anymore, it was fun and what not
so thats about it. just thought i would share casue it was funny
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| fare thee well |
[21 Aug 2004|01:13am] |
im out of this state and into another for a week. me and bloomer plan on sitting on or asses and browning ourselves to an ugly leather color. i plan on being in the great company of those at the thrash house and ejoying every moment of warm weather.
im sure ill miss a person or two , but ill be home soon.
have a fun show ( you know who you are)
Have a great time up north'
have fun moving everything and setting up your new home
have fun drinking
have fun not haveing to listen to my incessent chatter
have fun being in my state
yeah thats about it
thank you so much for the sweet bag oppertunity christie i love it sooo much
i come home and start my last year of college on the 31, way to go me
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